Friday, September 14, 2012

A Dad's Tale of the Toughest Week of My Life!

 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5,6
 First off, I'm not a writer, blogger fact, Ker is always breaking down the grammar and punctuation errors even in my texts! 
But, I felt led to share with you what has been going on with Mario this last week, Reese's Dad. 
When Kerry took Reese to her Doc last Thursday for a cough and fever, I never thought there was a possibility of never bringing her home and saying goodbye. 
To make this long story short, Kerry and I literally thought in two instances this week that we were going to have to say goodbye to our Reese. 
Have you ever been put in that situation? Have you ever said goodbye? 
As I write this, I want to be truly sensitive to all those friends that have said goodbye to their child....I honor you, I thank God for you and your testimony. 
As I sat on the chair with Kerry in my arms, looking at our sweet, beautiful young lady (she's not a baby anymore guys, she's gonna be 5 October 25) I wanted to leave the room and as far as I could. I wanted to escape the reality of possibly saying goodbye to the huge smiles she gives me and the mornings of her singing to me.... The possibility of saying goodbye to the turning her head when she hears my voice, when I ask her to open her eyes in the bright light and she just opens them just a crack! Saying goodbye to the uncontrollable belly laughs, saying goodbye to the days when she cuddles with me and falls asleep in my arms. I couldn't bare to think it was that time to say goodbye. 
I truly believe, I saw Death, face to face. It was dark, hopeless, helpless, scary, fearful, empty......
What was my refuge and strength?
Jesus, and Jesus ALONE! 
I know some of you might be reading this, thinking to yourself, "Oh boy, one of those religious fanatics!" Well, guess what, if I'm a fanatic for saying I cannot do this life on my own, then YES, I'm a fanatic, if it means I need a Savior EVERYDAY, YES I'm a FANATIC, if it means leaning on my Savior when I'm possibly looking at the last minutes of my daughters life? YES, I'M A FANATIC! If it means, I CANNOT live in this HOPELESS and HELPLESS world without Jesus? YES, I'M A FANATIC! Get it? Got it? Good.....
In my heart, I knew it wasn't time to say goodbye....but it was so hard hearing Doctors come in the room and speak DEATH over flesh SO BADLY wanted to SLAP, and I mean SLAP SILLY some of the Docs that would come in the room, make the comment, "This is probably the progression of her disease and I give her a 50/50 chance." Then LEAVE the room and not come back! 
Ker and I went through WARFARE, that's the simplest way to put it....WARFARE! 
We constantly, Praised God for Reese....thanking OUR AWESOME Creator for allowing us the BLESSING of being her parents....thanking Him for His BLESSINGS in hard times....saying LOUDLY.....I TRUST YOU FATHER! I TRUST YOU! Thanking Him for creating what the world says is bad luck (had a Doctor say that to us before Reese was born, wanted to SLAP him silly too!) and allowing us to have an amazing 4 years with her.
It's wild, the more I let my grip on Reese go, the more PEACE I had....a PEACE that all was going to be ok, even if we were going to say goodbye. 
All would be fine saying goodbye to my beautiful, little girl.
Now, I PRAISE AND THANK YOU LORD, that she is pulling through....I THANK YOU JESUS for the OVERFLOW of Prayers, visits, texts, phone calls, facebook messages, twitter posts etc....TRULY THANKFUL for the support and LOVE! 
This week gave me a whole, NEW perspective on life.
- A even BIGGER Passion of Eternity! 
- SPEAKING LIFE to our girls and everyone we come in contact with.....
- Being INTENTIONAL with our words.....
- To NOT put my peace and hope in will hurt and disappoint, we even got a taste of that too this hurts, but, we move on....
- Giving God the GLORY, in good times, and in difficult times.
In a nutshell....I'm a changed man because of what we went through this week! 
I have a renewed LOVE for my ladies in my life, renewed LOVE for OUR SAVIOR! 
My family, thanks God that we get some more time with Reese, some more time with ALL of our kids....we thank God for the gift of every breath we take, it truly is a gift. Every shot of oxygen Reese received is a gift! Being able to Pray out loud with a Doctor around Reese's bed was a HUGE gift to our family. 
I PRAISE YOU JESUS, my Savior, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords....the same God that at this moment is being worshiped by millions of angels, I PRAISE YOU and Thank you for the miracle of Reese.
God is GOOD! 
I'm a GRATEFUL Daddy! :)


  1. Mario,

    Thank you for loving God! Thank you for allowing Him to shine in your life! Thank you for sharing your heart! These are choices you have chosen to make, and it is incredible to see God encourage us all through your journey.

    We love you!
    Mike, Jackie, Brody, & West

  2. I will hold on to your words, dear Mario. Thank you for sharing. We love you and your little women.

  3. I will hold on to your words, dear Mario. Thank you for sharing these important and tender moments. We love you and your little women.

  4. I will hold on to your words, dear Mario. Thank you for sharing these important and tender moments. We love you and your little women.

  5. Dear Mario and Kerry,
    God is so good! Reese is indeed an amazing blessing and I praise Him for her, for her recovery, and very much so for the peace you are experiencing as you place her in His hands.

    Your story is a great blessing to me and to Jacque as we deal with that same fear/dread of losing Paisley. This post and Kerry's (Not Today!) remind us that God is in control, and His plan is perfect... thank you!

    May God continue to bless your family!
    Pam Serr (mom to Jacque Mix and grandma to Paisley, 18mo, AS)

  6. Thanks for sharing Mario. My wife and I met little Reese a couple years ago at our first Aicardi Conference, she is absolutely adorable. I agree with you, I have had people apologize to me when I introduce Sloane to them. I know they mean well but it sure does boil my blood. I feel it a priveledge to be her father not a burden. God has blessed me with the responsibility to care for her. She has changed our lives and those around us. The impact on others based on Sloane's life is astonishing, I'm sure your experienes with Reese are similar.
    I'm glad to hear she is doing better and thank God for anwered prayer, we will continue to pray for your family.



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